Your hurt is way beyond limit
You said you wont forgive yourself?
How sure can you be?
If you gonna be with someone else
sooner or later
you're already forgiving yourself
I really don't understand and don't know why

you can move on to another person so fast

like what you said

"wow' you not bad what thought you so fast"

that is just what you thought

but you confess everything to me that night

when you are supposed to be back together or are we back tgt

on our 6th months but ...

things is just so happening for you and another person

have you ever appreciate or treasure me at all?

6mths back still rmb you told me your stuffs
be it happy or unhappy or anger

have I ever turn you down?
I guess not
and I tell you the reason why I choose you in the first place
cause I guess you need me more than her or anyone at that time
and I really hope to brighten up your day and every single moment
just hoped and prayed that you'll be HAPPY!
guess I am wrong
I am too naive

08 Feb 06 06:31am
wonder if you still rmb and you sent me this

"Baby, you were like the light at the end of the tunnel for me. You were there for me always. I really treasure you. I love you baby. You brightened up my life. X)"
Did I brighten up in the wrong way?
I was wondering did I spoilt you too much?
I will do all ways to get all things or not say all but almost of it

to please you or just an exchange of your smile
coz I know I will be when you are

kinder surprise, yakult, cheezels
all this lil things I went to buy for you whenever
I am free before meeting you
have you ever appreciate all this you are having now?
or you just wont give a damn about it
To be frank I really treasure and feeling so happy
to be with you in the past

and I can tell you

you made my day almost everyday but that's the past

Ever since you were close to that person

you changed somehow

and slowly, alot alot and alot

not the EARTH or BABY I know anymore

you said before just let you know or tell you if you really changed or what but I thought you are mature enough to think and reflect upon yourself

I am wrong or maybe we will ended even early if I were to tell you

you changed!

On the 31st dec 05 and

1st of Jan this year

we went to watch firework at esplanade to count down

can I know what wish did you make?

I make a wish to last with you

wishing for a mature you as well

I pray, hope and wish

in the end is not for me but YOU!

Ok it sound so foolish now but you really can let go of this memories we had?
Cineleisure, esplanade, zoo, sentosa, escape, pasir ris pack, east coast park, airport, westmall, causeway point, queensway, twin's place, my place, your place and PS esp.

I gt you a squirrel and a mickey mouse bag in arcade
you forgotten it all?
or you are burying all the memories of us

so that you will feel better?

and lastly, thanks for accompanying me or just watching me play bball everytime I feel like to, you will be there w me and didn't complain much

for that, I didnt forget indeed I am super touched and thanks. Really.

6mths back you also said

I don't want a rejection like my friend but few days back

why can't you just give me a chance like how I did in the past

I don't want a rejection too!

but still you did it.

Can you image ?
How hurting is it?
When you told me, you're afraid of the another person will steal your heart away.
You said you're AFRAID!
but why do you still want to go w her ytd?
and you really disappointed me alot
is our 6mths!
And you really BEAR to go out w her instead of me?
Not only that and you're the one who ask her out and not vice versa

6mths! 6mths! so what is the past few mths to you?
I don't hate you now

but more of disppointing and hurting more

and somemore now is ANOTHER person
not that person anymore
how many more person you wanna get involve with during the period of us breaking?
Not even a week yet and this is happening
Don't you think you have let me down?
Or rather did you ever feel sorry for what you did?
I have no choice but to bring in one of the incident during the chalet we've been to
sth happened btw my fren a girl and a bung

the bung did sth wrong like flirting and stuffs?
den I turned to you and ask will you ever treat me like this?
hmm .. flirting w other people or whatever
you said a firm NO! even my twin was there
she still rmb even now
and I am not saying you're flirting but don't you think you over do it?

Don't you also will hate/dislike this kind of people?
I tell you!
now you will say a NO! but if it happens to ur fren, you will say the person is a flirt trust me not, you just have to think sometimes before you act
I don't know if you are trying to spite me now or you're just trying to show that you're leading a very happy life w/o me now and if it is so
I'll scram off myself and nvr ever interfere your life anymore





When you was all alone
I was there to accompany you and fight all the way through w you
As in I don't leave you in a lurch or sth right?
Have I?
I can say a firm NO!
but now, you said a break up and you found your new loves
you just leave me in lurch

do you think is fair?
don't say SORRY to me anymore
I have got no feel for that word anymore
it seems like a normal word from you to me now

sorry doesn't solve anything

and I'll be super hurt if you were to confess your love for her

you may seems like a despo to me

and althought you love the person
wants to have the person badly cause you love her
that no one can deny but the fact is
if it happens on you
I guess you'll feel so cheated right?

just like me

you confess to me in the beginning too

and ur ex is like can't image you can let go of the both of your
and being w me in such a short time
she wanted you back don't she?
guess she feels hurting at that point of time too

I once said!
don't ever treat me the way you treat your ex
as in you treated her quite cold I guess
is my own point of view lah
and pls!

don't ever go around telling ur next gf stuffs about me

as in BAD stuffs

I didn't want you to buy anything for me
I am not like your ex okie
but you promised me to go marina south to eat and you treat
a 70 plus bucks basketball

and alot more

can't think of it now

this is all that you PROMISE!

can you ever fulfilled and keep to ur promise by the rate/life you're gg on

you won't be able to save any amount if you are gg to stay this way

and ya, where's ur money came from?
she treated you or?
you promised me you'll save for me
did you? did you? did you?
you can even spend for your entertainment or happiness and nelgect all the stuffs you promised or said before
when am I getting it back?
what if I starve?
have you think of it anot?
NO. you don't right?
if not, you shouldnt be spending but slowly accumpulate all the small amount and slowly pass back to me
ya, see I spoilt you
I was frickle minded whether to lend or not to

cause things dont come so easy

is hard to get by the things you want

but still I want a happy you and ya.

To be frank lah
I can sense that your feeling is fading ever after that day I lend you

it seems like you are not holding on to me anymore
you also said before,
you wont be the who asks for a break

cause you know HOW hurting it is

but you STILL did

though I know you just can't take it anymore

but you show me the cruel side of you the night when I was tearing away
I really really can't image you changed to like this

maybe you didnt realise it but now I am telling you did
and pls treasure and cherish the people around you
don't be so to yourself and stuffs
go to your friend if you need them and be true to them
you'll know what true friends are.

Baby don't go don't go
How can I wake up tomorrow
I feel so sad

I can't trust love anymore

Baby don't go don't go
Our love will be hard to follow
It breaks my heart

if you don't love me no more
This song just fits me when you left
but hais is over now

Thanks that person

who keeps me company till 4am plus?
So is like the first time we chatted so much

came a part it just enlighten me

now I know who's the one

saying all the reality
guess I am living in fantasy/dreamland

in the past

sort of waken up

but still things get even worse I guess
and yeah
thanks and missed

loved (x

Just hope that you'll be more mature even though one of my wish is like vanish into the tiny air but still wishing and praying for a mature you. I once said as well, I will wait till see how you look like in second four but now, guess I should leave you alone and ya, no matter what your life is gonna be. Please be true to yourself and I would never forget all memories you left in. Thanks for all the beautiful memories but still I wish the baby I know will be back soon (:






Eye candy! thanks for accompanying me lah
sorry to keep you waiting for so long
and ya, thanks for the past few days
you are alwaes there for me
and yeah, if you need me, I'll be to
I love my eye candy
coz candy suppose to be sweet
and I love sweet! (: