Is 02:49am now
and I am out still

ytd and today was just a bad day

for alot of us,

bad couple day

breaking day

for all I know, there's 4couple

which is 8ppl in all who is facing all this tgt now

but now

guess I just have to include myself in
I simply just hate history repeating

why must we quarrel over again and again

over the same stuffs

dont you feel tired over it

I do
maybe you'll feel tired over me and not the things

that's gg through now

I am sorry but I have to blog it out

coz I have no where to share my pain and sorrow
wonder if you feel the same
or is there someone else who shines out there for you

Like what my class that jamie said is right,

letting go is part of growing up
I am a child

who owns/wish to have everything to herself
a selfish kid

a selfish lover

I can't share my lover w another person

on the same day or rather when we are tgt

I can't image myself if I did the same things to you as well

how will you feel

you're so stucked up to me last time
(my friend says so)
just in case you thought I am so thick skin
but seriously, I do feel so too in the past

but now, I have to go

not that I want
but I have no choice anymore

I tried to give ways
bear w all this that happening now but I simply can't

trust me if you ask your friends

they will say the same things as well I bet

why would we quarrel over and over just becoz of a FRIEND

and why must we always quarrel all this

ya, trust is broken

I tried giving you back all my trust for you

but history is just building up on it

that makes me feel even weaker

to be frank w you
I have no strength to carry on this r/s

why are we making the same old things that happened

over and over don't you feel tired of it

but I feel disappointed more instead

I was doing a self-check on myself that very night

I tried to keep away from her( you shld know who)

cause I don't wanna lose you in the first place

memories building up on it

and instead on thinking widely

my thinking is getting deeper and deeper

and not wide and so it hurts

just like a dying person at times

why must it be me

I asked myself and I guess I know why

what goes around, comes around

if I am adding on to your pain

I rather you leave
I am sorry for all your tears

I want to put a stop to all your unhappiness

prayed and hoped for a happy you now

rain or shine
I'd still be there for you
loving you is easy but hating you is hard so don't ask me

to hate you and stuffs

it won't work on me

if you think is so easy to let go of this

then in the first place why are we together right

alright, guess that will be the end of us

from today onwards.

To have you sleeping in my arms

is the most happiness things

Kissing your lips

is the most hornor thing

Having you once in my life time

is a bless

but forever I guess

impossible has made it so impossible now

last time not,

I love you my baby.

Thanks for being here for me

you know who you are

rushing down all the way from like so far

just to keep me company

even if the time is short but the heart is there

when I am feeling down

and being there for me

throughout the whole of the night

thanks for that pair of listening ears

and truely great to have know you

alright, is like 5:24am now

we are still sitting in the mac here

looking sleepy but our mind is clear

I did cheer up alot thanks yea

the star that brings me up once again when I fall

Rmb, no matter wad

I'll be there for you as well

coz you know I will be too

okie, I feel so weird posting about you now

when we are like so near to each other

shall end it w just 3 simple words for you

I love you
thanks my whoever (:

Lastly, thanks the yellow shirt girl who is sitting

beside of me now

thanks alot for lending ur laptop for like so long?

THANKS yeah (:
and also hope things will turn out well for you too!

SMILE HEH! =D

you are not alone! yea?

and the blue shirt one heh heh.

thanks for your ahem testi lah but yeah,

I am like gonna miss you when you're gonna away for like in awhile

take care while you in malaysia yeah

be there for me when I need ah

coz we are blah blah blah and

blah blah blah

Miss me AH!

if not, I am gonna ask u bang wall again haha

goodbye my lover! (:



Thanks for all who was there (:

Sorry I spend my day out,

phone batt dead on me

couldn't msg you so yah

but I am alright now

guess I didn't make you worry yea
you know who you are (:

good morning to myself!
a new day, new start!
05:31am
I am gonna be