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It fills alot of my feelings in it.
I'm living with fear every single moments now.
I feel as if I'm covered by all the stress and pressure on top of me.
I never felt like this before.
I feel so pressured so much pressured and stress den before,
not coz of whatever,
but my most fear is that I'll let my dad down.
My most FAV and respect dad.
Sighs plenty.
If only you know what's gg on in me.
I am so not OK!
I feel like crying now.
Living within fear x(
All those pressures and stress is pushing me to the edge now
I can simply jump off.
I don't want any disappointment.
Say you'll be with me no matter what?
Say you'll love me for who I am?
Say you'll forget me.
Sorrie.
I guess I just have to be strong.
Recap back.
Fri went over to fish's hse to play blackjack.
Lost again.
Goes my 9bucks to her sis's pocket.
Gosh lah, seems like everyone is losing money to TOH's family.
She wins my 21 bucks and her sis wins my 9 bucks.
30 bucks donated to TOH!
haha. but I am so called most LUCKY one among e rest?
4-5 people I am the top?
Why?
Coz some even lost up to 80 - 90 plus to TOH!
hurhur, if her hse gt robbed.
I am also not curious. LOL!
Think her sis won 100 plus over,
how I wish I am the one.
So I can gt that " sth ".
*Grumble
Who's willing to donate me some sums? bleh.
No more gambling for me.
I shall save up AGAIN. x(
Meet baby at CP ate my fav ' musscles ' and bk chicken drumsticks.
the taste of chicken is weird
Piggyback baby again to the playground, did I?
haha. don't know lah but I treasure every moments. (=
Sat was chingay day.
Ok, baby pls be honored ok?
This is the first time I acc someone to watch.
Coz I dislike watching all this but not this year.
And partly coz of my cute dad he sae
" we must learn to appreciate people's performance "
and sorry I'm late again.
I hope this won't happen again.
I cant promise but I'll TRY to not be late anymore.
Really! I'll TRY ok?
Don't be angry.
Waiting is a form of enjoyment yea?
Somemore my hse dere got lake for u to admire yea?
Bleh. and pls don't follow my footstep and go bath only when I am reaching or whatever ok? I learnt my lesson le. Really! hahas. =x
I hope so. =b
Chingay was OK
as I thought.
Oh MY! baby you owe me
$1.10 for the squid head
$1 for the ice-cream.
So I'll help u deduct it from the $4.60 ok?
Which means you only left $2.50 savings with me.
Haha. and not forgetting you still owe me
20 bucks for swensens on valentines.
If not, hurhur. =x
I'll go find other trees who is willing to spent 20bucks
and treat me. woot! HOHOHO!
but priority will still be YOU!
Baby ate alot of sugar on sat
and me?
nothing! coz eating too much sugar is bad for health uh?
Crazy baby had nth to eat den find sugar to eat
Gosh! too SWEET ready. haha.
Train back to woodlands is like abit ex.
there goes my $1.30 but how can I abandoned my baby alone.
haha. nvm, so I'll help her to deduct away from the $2.50 again.
So u left with $1.20 w me!
Phew wee weet!
and I love photo taking w baby in train.
at least we gt some better and nicer shot den previous time (:
Sent baby hme
and sth unpleasant happened.
Sorry abt it ok?
I didnt know coz behind of that " auntie "
coz I thought you don't even bothered.
So I walked away.
and I din know u actually waited for me.
By the time u told me,
I am already in bus.
I feel like getting down and go over to find you
but again, I don't wanna miss the last bus hme.
Perhaps, I missed it.
Coz is 12:05am
Wanted to cab hme but I am saving money now.
I am not " rich tai tai "
I am just a normal TAI TAI!! haha.
Keep YOU in suspense.
Reach hme just b4 1am and had my " yu sheng "
and daddy is leaving in 9hrs time.
I feel like crying at that moment.
OK, sounds weird but I think we are bonded more closer ever
we even MSG when we are bored ok.
Haha. wad a FUNNY and CUTE dad I have
even when we are inside the same bus but e seat is quite far apart.
He msg me that he's getting down with mummy first
to buy 4D and ask me to take care.
Funny right?
Ok. nbm then fri when the 4D results is out.
my dad msg me.
2*1* toppled.
I was so happy coz I tot it came out so I called him.
Guess what?
the moment he picked up the phone,
he was laughing like some mad people.
den I ask him really top ah?
den he laugh and sae is TOPPLED = fall down = nvr won!
den I was like WTH!
Funny lah he, den he sae " See lah, I laugh until even when I msg you I type some words wrong!" LOL! I cant BELIEVE that I have sucha CUTE dad lah.
my ONE and ONLY best dad in the world. bleh. =b
Sunday sent my dad off.
Woke up at 7:15am.
So NOT used to it.
and is like the first time after my O's my first ever EARLIEST breakfast at 9:15am in e airport.
Coz I am so used to having my brunch only at 2-3plus.
Ok, went over to wdl to meet baby.
I'm slightly late by 10mins AGAIN!
but you still owe me 20bucks hor!
Bought her a CANDY which costs 40bucks.
Hurhur, you better be honoured ok!
not 4 cents! So pls be HAPPY!
So we set off to my house.
Had sugar fight.
Short and simple,
the day is an unforgettable one.
Happy memories.
I am so not like myself on that day
Ok, I am still the shy duckie as people know. bleh. =b
PTS called me so we went over to BP plaza to meet her and off to bukit timah to have our dinner.
Baby and me were starving like for dont know how many hours.
Had satay bee hoon, still as nice as usual.
Played pool w PTS!
Lost almost all I think?
She sae " I anyhow play w her coz I nvr aim? "
She added; ' I think is becoz ur baby's here thats why u spilt minded or sth?'
Funny lah she. Maybe is just not my luck coz is alwaes lose to a last ball!
But ya, I didnt really aim today don't ask me why.
I know I am very good but dont need to praise me. hahas.
just joking lah. another game soon.
this time round, loser PUNCH!
and I'll AIM very properly! hurhur;)
Treat her and goes my $7.10 ahh!!
SAVE UP TIME DUCKIE!!
WAKE UP WAKE UP!!!!!
NO more SPENDING here and there.
Ok, BILL TIME!
BABY LISTEN UP!
$3 bucks for satay bee hoon
$1.20 for the sugar cane drink w lemon
$8.60 for cabbing to your place
So in all $12.80 pls?
Deduct frm ur savings is like only $1.20
So you still owe me $11.60 + $20 = $31.60
OK? clear enough? haha.
Went over to baby's hse and having FUN time there w my so called " SISTER " lying to baby's sis that I am frm SJC and my sister ' xiao xue' frm RAFFLES GIRLS! So hilarious lah she. den she ask baby sister back " den you leh? "
She replied " cedars "
and she added oh ya, that time she tot how come gt cedars boy but actually is Teck Whye Sec den she continued of ALL schools why must twss copy their sch uniform den me and pts was like " WHAT THE ! " as if we want.
Don't hate we teckwhyean ok?
We are the innocent one.
and we cant control e colours of uniform we want ok?
Baby's sis is just so NICE to be tricked.
So funny lah.
She dont even know she talking to 2 teckwhyeans.
Hurhur, and she actually believe me and xx is SISTER!
WTH! more like a couple I think? Oops. hahas.
So we walked frm her hse to causeway point and is so LUCKY
that we use WALK!
Coz PTS found 10bucks on e floor.
Oh MY god!
At first, I thought why she ask me wait and she bend down to e floor
and I am prepared to RUN!
coz I tot she wanted to throw me stone or sth.
But instead she found MONEY MONEY MONEY!
We spilt half each. woot hoos.
Went over to bp plaza ard 11pm plus and played game!
FUN and FUNNY!
Free cabbing hme by her 21years old fren
Save $$ again haha.
Coz is pouring HEAVILY!
I am catching cold.
not again I hoped.
PTS nearly fall down today again and
She made my day.
But BABY leave me w memories for the day (:
* our dirty lil secrets *
and MONDAY went over to baby's hse to have my KFC!
Her sister owes me 50cents for my cheese fries and baby too!
I dont care, all also money! I WANT I WANT! haha.
Help baby w her DNT hw
Ok, pls be good and learn how to draw yourself ok?
I cant be there for you alwaes but I'll still be here for you ok?
Sorry if I scare u just now.
I am so afraid!
Somemore was at baby's hse when I heard e results coming out on fri
I feel so blur and confused out of a sudden.
This feelings is weird
All sorts of foolish thoughts and things simply just came to my mind
I can't image myself doing all those things.
I'll just pray hard till the day I gt my results.
So you guys too ok?
All O's student!
IS FRI! COMING SOON! 3 days time!
WAOH! So SCARY!
I'm afraid.
I'll definitely go MIA that day afterwards.
I just pray I won't even drop a tear!
Even If I were to drop,
It must or better be a HAPPY tears.
Save me out from this thinking.
Urgh, I am going insane.
But still,
I LOVE MY BABY THIS MUCH!
* Donald HEART donnie endlessly *
I guess we are quite stable now
Hopefully, it stay this way forever and ever
Just you and I
I'm all about you.
I just love the way you smile (:
I miss sugar too. =)
Tearing to bed.
I'm so not like myself now.
It hurts.
If only, you know.
I love you too.
